Pata nahi kya bata thi usme jo lagti thi muje alag... Sbse bate krta tha bt usko bat krne me fatti thi Jab bhi dekhta tha use wo alag hi feeling aati thi dil me Wo Sabse alag dikhti thi muje pure class me Meri batch ki wo ladki .. Pata nahi kya khaas tha usme jo muje pasand thi wo.. Miss world jaisi khubsurat nahi .. thikthak thi.. wo pehle bt ab pata nahi wahi khibsurat lagti ... Usse bat krne ke bahane dhundta tha.. Pr bakiyo se to yuhi bat kr leta tha... Aisa lagta tha ki agr usse bat krunga to use wierd na lage.. isliye with reason hi bat krta tha usse... Pr ab to wo bhi nahi ho parahi thi... Himmat hi nahi ho rahi thi... Ab wo samay tha.. ki mai use mano ignore krne laga tha... Pata nahi kyo.. himmat nahi thi usse najre milane ki... Dr lagta tha usse merko.... Itta to baap se bhi nahi laga kabhi... Baap ko bhi agr kuch batana ho ya kuch mangna ho tab bhi aise nahi drta tha... Usse bat krna usko dekhna ab mano adat si thi.. Kuch reason tha mere pas college jane ka Ab to atyendece bhi badh gayi thi aur marks bhi... Study bhi kr raha tha.. aisehi.... Usko help mrne me jo khushi thi .ki bs pucho mt Pehle to bs acchi lagti thi... Maine socha isse dosti hi kr lete... Waise to mai kisi ladki se jada bate nahi krta tha.. Pr tere liye pata nahi kitne contact badhaye maine.... Pehle to bs acchi lagti thi.. Pr ab usse badhkar... Ho... Tuze bolna tha bahot dino se.. Pr himmat kaha.. Aur jab himmat jutayi tab pata nahi tu kaha .. Na samay mil raha tha na mauka... Kaise to bui mauka mila usme bhi mai.. aisa kr aaya ki bs ab kayki respect aur kya kuch.. Ab to ye bhi nahi pata bat bhi karegi ya nahi... Naseeb block nahi kiya... Atleast uski dp to dekh sakta.. pr usse bhi kya.. usme bhi teri photo nahi.. Bs phpne ki gallery dekhta hu... Tuzse nazre kaise milau nahi pata.. Himmat to hai mujme pr pata nahi jab kaam hoya tab kaha jaati... Bahot harami hai meri himmat.. kaam me wqt chod deti hai... Ba kya kare jindagi hi zhand hai apni.. Ab kare to kya kare... Mai lagbhag ek hafte se try kr raha tha pr.. kabhi mai kaha kabhi tu nahi.. kabhi mauka nahi... Matlab kismat alag hi khel khel rahi thi mere saath.. Merko hi ghuma rahi thi... Pr badme pata chala ki teri tabyet kharab hai.. Tb firse socha ab mauka milna nahi banana hai.. Isliye .. jab mila tab bol diya... Or kya kru bolne ke bad ft gayi meri... Bhaag gaya mai... Pata nahi kya soch rahi hogi tu mere bare me... Kuch bhi soch .. response +ve ho ya -ve pr kamse kam meri dil ki bat juba pr to aayi na.. Ab kya hoga i have no idea... Bt i m ready for worst.... Kuch bhi ho..... Makarsankranti to manali humne pehle... Kismat ne to mera hi kata hoga na.... Jindagi. Ne kaisi ye pech ladayi.. Meri hi patang maine hi kaat di... Ab pasta rha hu ki kaash sunta us waqt teri bat to ab ye bekhayali na hoti.. Bs yahi soch hai.. ki kya sochti hogi tu mere bare me.. Karegi kya firse merse baat.. Ya nahi karogi.... Pls krna yaar... Bura lagega yaar... Mai bhi kya kru yaar... Ab jo hai bata diya maine tuzko... Ba yahi satya hai... Batana to tha hi mujko tuze... Kitne din rukta aur... Kahi waqt na nikal jata... Kitne din chupata.. sach hai samne to aayegahi... Pr yaar baat krna pls... Mat chod muje... Atleast friends to reh... Mai hu thoda emotional ... Likhne mi aadat hai muje.... Isliye likh rha... Ye kisise nahi kr sakta na share.. Isliye likhta hu re.... Yaar... Nahi samaz raha kya kru... Mera mn bhi yaha ke mausam ki tarah hogaya hai.. Kabhi dhup kabhi baarish . To kabhi sardi... Bs mixture hogaya hai... Pura pollution hi pollution... Ab lagta .. hai.. purify krna padega.. Wrna accha nahi hoga... Dosto me saath baitha hu pr fir bhi akelapn lag raha.. Baat nahi kr pa rhaa usse... Usse to share bhi nahi kr sakta... Usko to pata hi nahi na kuch... Jisse share kr sakta... Wo to aaya hi nahi hai abtak... Koi nahi... Likh ke hi dil halka kr dunga... Pehle... To pen se book pe likhta tha.. Ab to notepad ka sahara hi.. aur do thumbs.. keyboard pe.. yahi hai bs ab... Accha hi hai.. Bahot dino se likhna tha topic nahi tha... Topic mil gaya isliye thank you.... Yaar tuzse response jana hai muje.. Pr how to..????? Kaise puchu... Himmat hi nahi hai... Dekhne ki.. teri tarf bhi.. aakh milane ki bhi himmat nahi hai.. Kuch bhi ho merko to janana hi hai na response... Lagta hai is bar bhi bhag jaunga.. Tu rok lena yaar muje... Pls... Teri aawag se ruk jaunga mai.. Baki ladkiya hamesha roti hi rehti choti choti bato bhi badha chake bolti... Hamesha ab kya hoga kya kru ab aisa krti .. Pr tu nahi krti aisa.. Teri hsi dekh ke to pucho mat... Dimag me pura dopamine ka tufaan hi aajata hai mano... Us tufaan me mai ud jata hu hawa ki tarah... Muje accha lagta jab tu chidati hai muje... Teri aawaj hi mst hai.. kya hsti yaar tu... Maja hi aajata... Ye mt soch ki freshers ki wajah se ye hai.. Balki sach ye hai ki iske wajah se wo din tha... college ki crush
