#ego,ill tell you story
so she calls Every night to just check if i m busy with someone or not,so i didnot réalise till day before yesterday, i said good night,she said good night , after some time she Called again was around 12:30
i asked her qhat Happened is everything alright she said i was juat checking on you if you busy somewhere or not, she meant as on call, so i asked don't you trust me, she send laughing emojis and was like its not about trust ,i do trust you but still i ll check everyday, i was angery i send angery emoji and said good night , next morning i didnot initiate any conversation had good morning , some talk about her family stuff but she didn't even realize through my way of messaging taht i was angery i told her i m not talking to you , we didn't talk whole day at night we start again i said goodnight early because she started irrité me on someting i said u Never rwalize or say Sorry ,u Never even try to convenience me ,i said on your face i m angery what you arw doing changing topic whenever i try to tall about it , so she said what are you angery on i said u dont trust me , she said but i will call everyday , and the i will find your cell busy , its end , i said réally ok try me , you will see soon , so i said good night put phone a side was about to sleep and one of my friends called and said she has exaggerating pain near heart , it's called heart burn pain ,i explained what will resolve her pain , I called my gf back in 3 or 4 minutes, she said wow we just talked and there you are busy , i also said i told you don't try me , she said i m done dont Messge me again i dont wana weast my life amd time on some aera gaira ,3rd calss person ,if you have little shame left then don't try to connect or text ya message i said i m shemlesss she said i m serious i said i was too whne i was trsing ro explain you were taking that as jock and laugh ans what you mean by aera gera,i m aera gera now , she Said yes trash in my life has increased its time to dump trash , I got angery i sajd fuck of and get lost , she said go to hell i said come with me i will go anywhere ,she said don't you connect me ever ,i was angery i also message some bullshit writing don't very i won't and don't you ever message me ,or if possible don't remember me in your prayers too , and thats all but she didn't even she my messages , its been 24 hours now i have posted lost of sad songs ans status , i go online to check on her last seen and on whats app and fb, Everytime phone buzz notification my heartbeat race it fells like it will comw out just its her message or call she wants me back she is Missing me but no it's YouTube sending me notification on motivational videos , i m heaving this really suffocating feeling its littrely shallow pian in my chest my breath is getting heavier, i m skipping my breath ,my heart is having abnormal rythem when i think about he.it took me really long time to came out of the other one (not relashshiip but pain) finally i started to believe in ove ,i didnot hope there js such thing or feeling and i can feel it too, but this is drowning me in black water i came out of once ,i Dont knwo what i did was right or worng but i dont understand she why didn't even ask whome i was busy with and why , and still i Want to go and say sorry baby i can explain myself but itsnog usei will lost my self-respect and respect in her eyes too what ill do with that love without respect ,i have been watching all romantica web series and movies based in love so u can keep my faith alive.tha love is still there may be not for me but it's there so that's how its end i didnot got my ans why she didn't ask ,did i do right or wrong but i started to feel empty again before it was there when she was ther that time also but less but now it has been amplified and was i that easy to leave .
