A LOOK AT LIFE-113 BY-SMRUTI RANJAN MOHANTY FROM NOTHING TO NOTHING I know not Why I sometimes feel Life is pain infinite Searching for something none existing An exercise futile A venture sad and pathetic I do not know Why sometimes I think Life is a misadventure Never understood A foregone conclusion Accepted as a sad reality A journey in the void An endeavour wasted I know not What lets me live When I know I am living for nothing With nothing to accomplish Why I am living in a relationship When all relationships are for a period of time Either they will leave me Or I will leave them Adding more sorrow and misery To an already miserable life. Probably life is waiting for that dark night After which there will be no sunshine I have seen them leaving me one by one My father, my grandfather, My friends young and old and all Who loved me and whom I loved They lived, endured and left With tears in eyes and desires unfulfilled Hopes shattered and dreams unrealised Behind their smile, I have seen their tears Apathy and frustration A life lived under the shadow of death. I witnessed all these as a mute spectator I often ask me Is life a poignant tragedy I ask me Am I living for that pathetic reality? The great departure To leave the game when I am fully engrossed. Life is less smile and more of tears Happiness is a little breather Where sorrow is one's constant companion Then why I am here When nothing seems to be in my favour Am I here Is it because of some compulsion An accident or something else I do not know I do not understand Why so much suffering and planing in the present For a future never in vision When one does not know Whether there is any tomorrow I do not know How I am rejoicing and Relishing the present Knowing well I am heading towards a dead end Beyond which there is only darkness. What is that life Where death looms large One does not know How and when it will come In the grip of death I strive for that nothing Which keeps me going In the midst of grief and agony I breathe and live for nothing I love and die for that nothing Life is a journey from nothing to nothing I know not Why sometimes I feel Life is God's blessing Captivating and worth living I respect and adore it Lose me in its spellbinding beauty But sometimes I feel If it is an accident and I regret being here for nothing. Smruti Ranjan Mohanty© #Fire A LOOK AT LIFE-113 BY-SMRUTI RANJAN MOHANTY FROM NOTHING TO NOTHING I know not Why I sometimes feel Life is pain infinite