Jindgi Achha khasa jivan chl rha tha apna. Haan, w

Jindgi Achha khasa jivan chl rha tha apna. Haan, wo jivan jisme kewal padhai tha, dream tha ambition tha. Pr acchanak mere social media pr uska ek msg aya, usika msg jisko dekhne ke liye roz school jaya krte the barso pahle, pr bss dekhne ko, na to mujhe ussase kuchh kahna tha, na hi kuchh bat krni thi, mujhe abhi bhi yad hai ki uske class me ate hi dil aur dhakan ek ajeeb sa khel, khelne lgte the, pr ye silsila bahut jld hi khtm ho gya, wo school chorkr chli gyi aur mai khud me hi magrror ho gya. Kuchh 6 sal badd uska msg apne phn pe dekhna,ek yesi feeling thi jisko byan krne ke liye sayd mere pass sabd nhi hai. Mujhse mera phn nhi pkda jaa rha tha. Bole to mai bahut hi nervous tha aur uske upper se uska batt krne ka tarika mujhe aur nervous krr diya tha. Hr msg me tere ko, mere ko jaisa sbd aur mujhe yese batt krne ki adt nhi thi. Uss din kuchh 3 ghnte bate hui aur last me uska msg(bye forever) mujko itna hurt kiya, sayd utna kuchh ne v nhi kiya hoga. 1 ya do din fir usase bat kiya aur fir usase meri bat bnd ho gyi. Mai uska I'd hr jgh dhoondhne ki kosis krta, pr mujhe milta nhi. Mai new fb user tha, meri type krne ki speed itni kmm thi, sayd wo bore ho jati thi. Mai ussase bss batt krna chahta tha aur usko mere me koi interest nhi tha, sayd kisi aur me ho. Fir 3 ya 4 mahine badd uska koi msg aya, fir bate suru hui aur uske hostel jane tym fir bnd. Last talk yhi tha ki, sayd mai tumahre layk nhi hu, mujhse bat mtt krna byeforever. Sayd yhi wqt tha jbb mere andr ek yesa chij ka jnm, Jo mere liye sayd shi nhi hai, ego nd attitude.Deep inside uske liye pahli Barr yesi feeling ayi ki akhir khud ko samjhti kya hai!Sayd iska wajh ye bhi ho ki uss tym me kuchh ldkiya mujhe propose bhi kr chuki thi. Reason kuchh bhi ho maine ye decide kiya ki batt krna too dur iske bare me so chenge bhi nhi, maine agle 5 month uske bare me sochha tkk nhi pr iska mtlb ye nhi ki mai kisi aur ldki se seriously batt krne lga, fir se mai focused hokr kewal studies pr dhyan dene lgga. Fir 5 month badd maine apna fb khol a aur uska msg, kha ho yarr, mujhe tumse batt krni hai. Muumy kasam mai sab kuchh bhul gya, kahe ka ego kahe ka attitude. Iss dauran, wo apne life ka kuchh important bate mujhse share ki, pr mujhe to kewal ussase batt krna, uska batt sunna, issise mtlb tha.Aur fir hmari batt suru ho gyi, kuchh 4 ya 5 mahine tkk chla aur wo fir Delhi, ussase bat km hone lgi bole to almost bnd hogya. Aur mujhe bahut Taklif hota tha usase bate nhi hoti thi, ek yesa pain jo mai hi samjh skta hu. Mujhe yesa lgne lgga ki Delhi jakr wo mujhe bhul jayegi, kun satyam, kahe ka satyam. Bat nhi hone k wajh se ya kmm hone ke wjh se jb bhi batt hoti, mai shi se batt nhi krta. Mujhe yesa lgta, fir ye mujhse batt nhi karegi, issase achha abhi hi nhi kre. Aur deep down analysis kru to sayd ye wari tha jbb mai ussase expect krne lga tha. Care for me, replies 4 my msges and so on. Aur yhi suru hoti hmari nok jhnok. Mujhe yesa lgta tha ki she doesn't care for me, she doesn't treat me the same as I do 4 her. Aur treat kya krna 10 min achhe se bate hi to krni thi. Mai apna bahut kuchh uske samne express kr diya tha aur wo kuchh bhi nhi, Pr sayd usse ye nhi pta ki mai uske bare me jo sochta tha uska 10 percent bhi nhi kiya tha. Mujhe yesa lgne lga ki ye one sided hi chl rha hai. Aur yha se mere words kuchh hard hote gye, mai usko clearly bol deta ki mujhe tumse bat krni nhi hai, mujhse dur rho, aur kbhi wo block krti, to kbhi mai, aur kbhi mai unblock krta to kbhi wo. Blocking and unblocking kuchh dino tkk chla pr msg hmesa whi pahle krti thi. Mujhe smjh me nhi ata tha ki akhir ye chahti kya hai. Aur mere 12th ke exam aa gye. Iss tym pe bhi sab kuchh bhool kr mai ussase bat krta tha, kyunki ussase batt krna mujhe bahut achha lgta tha. Mujhse abhi yad hai math wale exam ke din ussase rat bhr bat kiya tha. Fir kuch dino badd hmari bat bnd ho gyi aur mai dehradoon chla aya. Fir mere 12th ke results aye, 74%only.Mujhe itni frustration hoti thi ki rato me neend nhi ati thi. Iss phase me mera frustration kewal do chhej hi door kr sakta tha. First wine nd next her. I cant drink cause I have promised to mmy that I will never. Maine bahut try kiya ki ussase batt n kro pr maine kiya, nd this tym it's 4 me. Dehradoon me jb hmari batt hone lgi to first time mujhe yesa realise hua ki she has equal intrest in myself. I was really happy. Every thing was going good. Aur fir ek wqt aya hmari fir se ldai ho gyi, sab ldai ke pichhe ek hi reason, uska reply na dena, ya uska mere se batt na krna, aur iss wari maine decide kr liya tha, Bahut ho gya, now let's, Move on. Maine usko kuchh yese words bole the, Jo sayd mujhe nhi bolne chahiye the. Fir 6 ya 7 mahine badd, she send me fb request. I have missed her lot in this period. Mai request accept kr liya. Firse usko mnana, Jo ki mera habbit ho gya tha. Hr fight ke badd jb wo msg krti, to mai wo kuchh bkk deta, Jo uske bina krta. Fir bate hone lgi. Uska 12th ka paper tha, iss bichh bhi fight hui but she have asked me to be there during her 12th, nd hopefully I was. And again we do the same. Kuchh dino badd 12th ka result aya, iss wari itne bure din aye the ki maine ek dusre ldke ke namm se insta I'd bnayi aur result jnana ki kosis ki but she caught me saying that I can recognise you anytime. Fir maine apne nam se I'd bnaya uska result puchha kuchh achhi achhi bate ki aur MN hi MN ye socha ki finally the end which should have been is going to be on a good note. Fir maine wo I'd delete kr diya. Fir maine ussase contact krne ki kbhi kosis nhi ki. Usko to ye sab yad bhi nhi hoga jitna maine likh diya hai aur accept bhi krta qunki ye meri story hai uski nhi. So here the first nd probably the last story of my life comes at its fence. Good by (Sr. 5 July 2019) A untold story of a star

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A untold story of a star