the second last chapter
it was march 1,2012 11:01 pm.
the conversation was going on very happily between us..but dun knw wht happened to her again.. she suddenly started saying that i am gonna to close all ways of our interaction.. i am gonna to deactivate my account..etc etc..
i asked why what happend now yaar..?
is there any problem..?
atleast give me your phone number..so that i can talk to u..
she- noooo yr i dnt wnt to talk to u....
n m saying na ki mjhe tumse baat krni hoti to me kyu delete krti..soo plzz he- am i timepass for u..?
she- aise to me tmse baat krna bnd nai kr skti.. so nw there is only a 1 solution.. nooo yar u r nt a tym pass.. nd leave it tm ye baat kbi nai smjhoge.. he- Solution m apko deta hoon...ya to ap close ho jao ya muje close aane do.... she- this is not possible.. nd na kbi ho skta h..
i knw i hv hurted u so mch.. nd sory for tht.. i hope u will have a vry gud future.. nd forget me.. tumhe mjhse b ache bht frnds milenge..good byeee.. nd take care.. he- plzz dun go yaar..
ishu plzzz plzz don't go yaar..
i need u ishu..
but finally she did what she wanted to do...
and she went away from me..
As last tym i said bye to her angrilly and sadly..
i was feeling damn bad at that time..And my anger was out of control on that day.. but again i got a msg from her.. i was unable to control myself and i talked to her in a very rude way.. it was the same day Feb. 29,2012 at 3:06 pm
she- agr tum gye na.. to mein tumse kabhi baat nahi krungi..
he- kya yaar..
she- ho gya..?
he- kya ho gya..?
she- tumhara drama khtmm..
he- kya ghanta drama khatam...aur drama kise bol rhe ho ye sb majak na tha.. she- itna shayad tum b mjhse baat nai krna chate honge.. jitna i wnt to talk to u.. okk.. bt its nt in my hand... nd mene to kbi nai bola tht mera lck hi acha nai h... god mere sath hmesha aisa krta h.. nd pta nai kya kya...
bt i still thnk abt u tht kahin meri wjah se tumhari life na khrab ho jaye... nd tum ho ki... bolte rhte ho ki mera to luck hi khrab hai..
he- Muje apni luck ki tension nai. Ek din sbko marna h. Do din pehle mar jayenge is se jyada kya hoga.. Dun knw why but anger was increasing continuously..
And i again said bye to her..
and Then on that night we didn't talk..And i wished her gudnyt at 9:27 pm. in the morning i checked my inbox..and i saw sad smiley message..
i simply wished her gud mrng and have a nice day..and then we didn't talk to her the whole day.. in the evng she asked me how are you..??
he- Bs mind ki band bji h nd headache h. Nd tum to thk hi hoge..?
she- yr mera mud kal bht jyada khrab tha nd today also...
mera bht jyada rone ka mann kr rha h bt i cant evn do tht also... nd i dnt knw y... n yesterday i was feeling like d hell... i wnt to talk to sum1 bt tm such me chle gye... nd u r talking abt d headache... ye to mjhe pichle 4 dino se lgatar ho rha h.. pta nai.. migraine he ho gya hoga... nd yar tm to hmesha mera mud thk kr dete ho na thn plss do smthng... plsssss.... he- Yar.....schi m mera b mud aaj...bilkul off h....nd...pta nhi....na hi man lag rha... na hi kch krne ka man kar rha h.......nd leave dis joke sunaoge...???? then i sent a joke to her..
he- aur suna kaisi h tu..??
she- not fine..
he- Kya yar....tu kbhi juth nhi bol sakti...?
and then again i sent a joke and that was..
1 Ldki thi Diwani si.. cigrte piya krti Thi..
Chori chori chupke chupke tambkhu ghisa krti Thi..
Srma k balkha k daru piya krti Thi Jb b milti muje pucha krti Bidi pioge... she- achhaa khud cigratte peti thi nd tumhe bidi deti thi... veryyy bad.. he- Ha....yar ldkiyan....knjus jo hoti h...
she- ok mene khana khane ja rhi hu 10 min baad baat krti hu.. ok
he- Kha.....lo...nd khane k name p ....ek bat yad aa gyi....khana kha lo...bad m btaunga....okkkzzz she- bta....nd tmne kha liya khana??
Pta.....h....is 31st dec ko exam tha...mera...so m frndzzz k sath ....rohtak room p ruka tha....... To....m.......vahan....nikkar nd t-shirt m tha to.....sone k tyaari kar rha tha.....to dost bole.... ki yar aaj...raat ko koi nhi....soega.....
he- aishe hi masti mein..
To...rat k 10 bje the,...nd dost bole...jao kuch khane k liye le k aao.....to.. m and mera ek frnd nikal.gye lene k.liye......to vahan p market lgi thi...... to sab meri taraf hi dkh rhe .......bda ajib lga yar..
she- hehehe... aisaa kyu??
he- Yar.....sardi...thi...nd m only in nikkar nd t-shirt....to sab dekhenge hi.... she- to tum logo ko bol date na..... tht...... itna b mat ghuroo..... havn't u seen a hhhoooott.... boy....ever... he- Hehehe.....nyc......to wo bolte chikne ek pose to de....photo lena h... she- hehehehee.... chiknee....
he- Ho...gya....mud on.....?????
she- yups...thanx..... nd tumhara headache thk ho gya??
he- nahi abhi to nahi..
she- nd tum kal gussa to nai hue the na???
he- Hua tha....bilkul hua tha ji...
he- kuch nahi aishe hi...leave it..
she- plss tell na..?
he- Bs yar rehnae de na.plllzzzzz
she- okkk sorry for that..
he- hmmmmm....its okay..
she- nd me aage kbi aise kru tu uske liya b abi hi sorry.....ndd wese kya kar rhe ho??? he- tere sath date pe hoon..
she- acha nazar to nahi aa r
The things i had feared about were happening with us again and again.. sometimes she talked to me with an happy mood..
and sometimes she did with a rude beahaviour..plzz dun talk to me..etc etc.. sometimes i felt like heaven and sometimes like hell..
sometimes my nights were pleasent and sometimes was with tears in my eyes.. and the worstest thing was that it was happening again and again..
my nights were going sleepless..
it was feb. 29,2012.
she asked me..tell me how many best friends do u have..?
i said, 5 and urz..?
she- ek b nai.... mene tumhe btaya tha na tht i dnt make best frnds.... he- why...?
she- bas aishe hi.. ab trust nhi hota kisi par..
he- kyu..? kisi ne toda hai tumhara trust..??
she- hmmmmm... kami nahi hai aishe logon ki...and leave this..
he- kyu kya baat thi..agr bta skte ho to..? if u don't mind...??
she- mere 2 bst frnd the varun n sikha... thy both luv each othr...
nd thy r still in a relationship.. in short bolu to thy jst used me.. or kch nai... varun was a nyc guy... nd bht baar unhone mera trust toda bt i ignored it... n one day varun ka msg aaya tht un dono ka brkup ho gya h... n he wil die n bla bla bla... thn mene sikha ko smjhaya to she said tu hmesha uski side leti h...
so i said to thm... tht jo krna h kro... nd jbki unka brkup hua hi nai tha... unhone jhuth bola tha i dnt knw y... nd mjhe ye baat kisi or se pta chli thi... nd thn mene dono se pucha to varun said tht tu kisi ki b baat p viswas kr leti h... bt after some time he accepted tht unhone jhuth bola tha..
thn he said tht circumstances he aise the.... nd excuses bnane lg gya... nd sikha mam to aise behave kar rhi thi jese use kuch pta hi na ho... nd i said him i dnt wnt to lisyen anythng.... nd pls aaj ke baad dnt msg.. he said sory... bt i didnt rply... thn he said ok...
agar tjhe ise se khusi milti h to gud bye...
nd uske baad i nvr talk to sikha abt this matter or na mene kbi usse kch pucha... nd wo jb b mere ghar aati h... she behave lik jese kbi kch hua hi nai... nd merese to usse baat tk nai kri jati....
nd u knw sikha har baar mjhe bolti thi me varun se puchu tht wo kahan h... nd bla bla bla... nd wo uski baate mjhse puchti thi... wht is thiis... mtlb yar tera bnda h tu puch me kyu puchu.... who d hell i m.... nd unhone mjhse itne jhuth bole h na tht i cnt evn tell u... both were selfish nd liar...
nd unko jb koi kaam pdta tha na tbi unhe meri yaad aati thi.... bt pagal to me hi thi na... he- mujhe to wo dono pagal lage..aur chod yaar...tere face gussa acha ni lgta..okk she-
he- that's a gud girl..
she- acha ji.. kya kr rhe ho..?
he- tumse baat..
she- sure lock kr diya jaye..
she- to iska jawab hum break k baad denge..
he- okkk break complete..now tell me the answer..?
she- oh.. welcome back to kon banega roadpati.... taaliyaaannn....... toh aapkaaaa jwaaaab bilkuuulllllllll......sahi tha..... nd aap jeet gye... h... ek pagal ldki ki..... SMILEEEE's..... congratulations....
he- very funny..
she- insult kr re ho..?
he- nahi line maar rha hoon..
she- aise line maroge to fir to tumhe koi ldki milne se rhi...
then i said her that i wanna to make u my best frnd..
she- u knw who is best frnd..?
he- Nai mje nai pta. Btana 1 bar..?
she- who can b with u forevr... who can help u in every trouble..
who always stands besides u for helpng, caring.. nd i cant give u all this.. nd listen abi to u hv jst startd ur life yr..
bht ldkiyan milengi nd m sure better thn me...
he- Yar tu pagal h kya....????? Wo to muje b pta h..bhut milegi....koi specail b hota h.... she- bt i cnt evn talk to u 4 forevr... i dnt knw tm kyu nai smjhte.. he- Okay. As u like..
she- soryy yar bt i cant do anythng... really sorrry...
he- zarurt nhi hai sry ki..
she- if u want me to b hapy for my rest of the life... thn plss u b hapy... nd plllllllssssss dnt waste ur life plsssss...
he- Yar ab tune to dialouge...chipka.diya....ab muje pta h mere sath kya ho rha h...? bye t'cr..
After that we talked normally for just few days..and she was not talking to me as much as she had done before.. And again she started doing the same thing that plzz dun talk to me..
He- yaar tum itni jldi emotional kyu hote ho..??
She- emotional ki baat nahi hai.. I don't want ki meri wajah se koi hurt ho..and tumhari baatein sunke to mujhe dar lgta hai..
He- kyu m devil ki baatein krta hoon..? (to change her mood...)
She- very funnnnny...
He- chal to hans k dikha...
She- very smart..baat talni to koi tumse sikhe...anyway tumhari marzi..
She- nthng is gud...
She- tum chup rho nd bye...
He- yaar aishe mt jao..sad hoke..
Aaj rone ki to nahi soch ri hai na..?? Plzzz be happy yaal...
She- agar m tumse baat krna band kr doon to tujhe koi farq pdega..??
He- haan bhot farq pdega..aisha bhool k bhi mt krna... Nd bye tu sach m serious h ..bye t'cr..
She- listen..jis din tumhe farq nahi pdega on that i will be happy..and aisha kbhi ni hua to mujhe khush hone k liye mt bolna...
Dun knw why but the Same thing was happening again and again.. She was not talking normally... I told her that..'' tu chup chup achi ni lgti..''
She- chup kahan hoon..bol to rhi hoon..
He- haan..but phle ki tarah chappr chappr ni kr ri.. ?
She- oye m chappr chappr krti hoon..?? Aur ye aankh kise maarte rhte ho..??
He- haan..abhi aayi h line p tu..
She- acha tarika h sach bolne ka..
She- mujhe pta tha tumhara rply means hi aayega... Means tumne sach bta diya m chappr chappr krti hoon..
He- ohhhh... But ye to tarika tha tera mood thik krne ka..
She- hmmmm... Thnxxx...
He- achaaa...tumhe thnxxx bolna bhi aata hai...
She- koi shaq..??
He- nahi...shaq aur tujhpe...??
She- itni shrif ...sidhi,,,pyaari,..naadan and masoom..and blah blah blah...si ladki pe koi shaq kar bhi kaise skta hai...
He- ohh bas bas break maar...
She-meri gaadiyon m break ni hota..
He- for what..
She- mood change krne k liye...
The next day she was happy..and was talking in a very funny mood...i wished her gud mrng and asked hwz u...??
And the conversation at that moment between us was..
He- ohhh..achi baat h ye to...
She- haan wo to hai..and i knw u r also fyn...so m bhi bol deti hoon achi baat hai..phir tum bologe hmmmm......
So topic finish here aage bolo...
He- oye tu bdi ho gyi h...??
He- kyun ki...tu bhot sochne lgi hai...
She- nahi nahi...wo to m bachpan se hi sochti hoon..and kuch jyada hi sochti hoon..
He- okk hmesa m bolta hoon..tu bhi kuch bol diya kar..
She- oye hello... Tum kb bolte ho..tum bas hmmmmm...haann..no...okk...bolte rhte ho iske alawa kuch aata hai..
He- haaan alphabets aati..aur har word inhi se bnta h..so mujhe bhot kuch aata hai...
She- very funny...ab tum bologe to has do....so
He- kuch bolne bhi degi kya ya sb kuch khud bologi...??
She- bolo na..kisne mna kiya hai...and abhi thodi der phle tumne hi bola tha bolne ko so ab kya hua...???
He- bolne to de phir..?? Pta hai aaj fb pe kya hua..?? ek ladke ka mere paas msg aayaki..''hi..kaisi ho..?''
Mene bola bhai profile dekh le ladka hoon...usne bola bhai teri profile ladki jaisi lgi...
meri profile ladki jaisi lgti h yaar teko..??
And ab bol na kisne chup hone ko bola h tujhe...??
She- hehehehehe...pta ni ..mene ni dekhi hai..
He- dekh k btana aaj..??
She- nahi yaar..ladki jaisi ni h..and aishe incident tumhare sath hi kyu hote h..??
He- pta nahii...
She- u knw aaj m metro se akeli ghar aayi...
He- clap guyzzz...shayad usme rush ni tha..tbhi to tu zinda hai...
(ushe crowd se dar lgta tha...bola krti thi bheed m aisha feel hota h ki m mar jaungi...)
She- haan jyada nahi thi ander..but station p thi...but phir bhi m aa gyi... I am so brave na..??
HE- hmmm...aur kya kya karname kiye aaj..??
She- pta nahi..mujhe to yaad hi ni rhta pure din m kya kya krti hoon..
He- tu na little champs khaya..kar...kyu ki 90% brain ka vikas 5 saal ki umar tk hota hai..
She- haan hota hoga...but mera dimaag thoda diff hai