To the love of my life 😘 Ok I am saying sor |

To the love of my life 😘 Ok I am saying sorry beforehand only. Today 19th Jan and tomorrow is my prelims Sx paper 2. Still I felt like writing this now. I was like sad yesterday when you talked about how you wanted to drink milk by spilling it on my mouth and rest other things. I know you would remember them now. I was feeling so sleepy that time and all exam questions were moving in my head. What will I study tomorrow, how much is remaining and such things. But I couldn't say no to you. You were describing it so beautifully. I felt like going back to our moment of 29th. I imagined everything you said but still I just held my heart tight bcoz if I gave up and got lost in your imagination then it would so difficult for me to not think about you and I would crave for you sleeping beside me. I had to control my flying heart na. But the feeling was so good you know. In between I had almost given up when you were saying that I would give my weapon in your mouth and sleep over you, my mouth touching your opening as I would lick and bring the fluid out. My secretions had begun I could feel them but then I brought myself back. When you asked did it happen and I said no I had just controlled myself. And you were like good. I could feel that sadness in your voice a little bit. I did feel sad too. But then I slept saying you good night. Next morning when I got up my first thought was did he feel bad for what I said. I will ask him today on call. Then I asked you today and you were like no, no why will I be! I will find the one who will feel when I say and I was like ok now he is enjoying giving me a hard time. Then you told me about your dream of how you had gone to the marriage of your sister, the one who loved you and the groom ran away and since no one was there, you married her. Then in that dream I called you many times but you didn't pick up the call and you said see your dream got true in my dream. I was laughing but was little bit hurt or sad kind of from inside. Tears had started building up. Then you said see one day will come when this dream will come true in reality. One day I will get married and you will call but I won't pick up. Then one day will go, 2 days will go, 3 days will go, 4 days will go you will call entire day then on 5th day you will call only half of the day, on 6th one-fourth of the day and on 7th you will stop calling saying he left me. I will find better someone. Tears were almost filled in my eyes but I was eating so you couldn't see it and light was on too in my room. I couldn't hold them anymore so I told you let me throw my lunch box, I will come. I got up bcoz they had already started falling from my eyes and I didn't want you to see them. I told you to wait but tears didn't wait they kept flowing. I ate my remaining dal and went to throw my lunch box, washed my face and came back. Then we talked. The thought of even you leaving makes me cry like you can't know how much. Now also I can't hold my tears back. If that happens in real I don't know what will happen to me. My happiness would be lost bcoz it resides in you, with you and will always be in you. I don't even want to imagine that right now bcoz then I would want to cry more like loudly but my roomie is sleeping and I don't want to disturb her. I cry out silent tears. They flow, they bring out what my heart feels but then they also show me how much I love you and I know you love saying that to me all the time. But it's ok. Wo pyaar hi kya jisme thoda rona aur rulana na ho ❤️ तेरे बिना ये ज़िंदगी लगती है अधूरी तू है तो ये सफर लगता है पूरा तेरे होने से ज़िंदगी को अलग चमक लग जाती तू है तो मैं हूं और तेरे बिना ये ज़िंदगी है अधूरी।

To the love of my life 😘 Ok I am saying sor

Divya Kulkarni🐿️