mom wrote me a letter// Finally, I'm shifting from this place. Its been long staying here but I'm grateful that I found this place which bought the sense of familiarity that i longed always. 5 years, not a short period of time but why it seems like yesterday, i was there preparing to shift here. I lived with my parents for 3 years. As a child, i don't remember how much but while preparing for undergrad entrances, i stayed there and that's what I've in my mind. I fought everyday and saw them fighting everyday for smallest of things that i started hating myself for being there. Dad used to beat mom and for an answer he would say, he couldn't control his anger and she always poked him for doing so. Mom is no sane, she envied that more than anyone but loved him more than that. I remember seeing them made me more of crazy. I couldn't control my anger issues and to fight with me, they made their group always. Such a beautiful pair. I wanted to question if that's something not toxic? I barked that they're not good parents nor i wanna become a good daughter but same with me, we always were fine the next day and the cycle repeats. One fine day, i and my mother had a great argument on who's better as if we were competitors. She compared our times with their times and grades, i went insane again. I left that house for a while and when i came back, there was a letter on my study table saying - "No one is yours but your parents will always be. See, my parents never left my side. Take care, study well and don't be crazy always. Talk less to your friends". This letter is in my hand right now. I didn't talk to mom after that cause i accepted we were different and nothing can make her understand my point of view in any case. I'm thinking, what to do today? Should I talk to her about what wrong she conveyed in that message? But i always felt, i want letters from her, she just wrote one and see, what she wrote. - twixi
