Suddenly, everything that was so familiar about life felt so foreign. I was lost without you. All I had left were my memories and dreams of us that I knew would never come true. There are a few things that I never had the opportunity to tell you ... Every time I called you, I looked forward to hearing you answer the phone. You would say "hey" in this voice that sound so innocent and so loving. And it never changed. It always reminded me of the beginning of our relationship and all of the reasons I fell in love with you. Who would have thought something so simple could be so powerful? It's what made you unique. Remember all the times you yelled at me when I was looking at you? You'd ask me why, and I would either laugh or get angry because you had this "sass" about you. You know what? I looked at you because I thought you were the most beautiful thing in the world. I didn't care what you were wearing -- whether you had makeup on. I'd look at you and get lost in your laugh and your smile. Whatever flaws you believed you had, I loved -- how you'd look in the mirror and always suck in your stomach; how you always analyzed every picture we took together and made me delete them, nine times out of 10; how you'd pace around on the phone when you were nervous. Or how about how you hated to be on video? I noticed everything. But I loved it. I couldn't wait to make you Mrs. Shukla.
