11. Yes finally I do want to confess it to you. It has been a long time. I wanted to say it for long but was not sure about it myself but I do feel it. When you say about Shruti I do feel a much possessiveness about you. I don't know why. It might be how you both fight or both talk. You are comfortable with most of the girls I know but Shruti gives you a tough fight whatsoever topic it is but in the end you always have your final word. I used to think before that maybe sometime you may feel you both have good tough fight giving spirit or what I can't describe it properly but you know what I mean. But then I read another one of my letters to you today where you said you know others want to see me so they talk to me but you loved me without even seeing me and that is real love and now I have full trust in myself and my love for you so I don't fear now that much or whatever you say for it possessiveness. But when you keep saying it more and more often I do feel jealous. I feel as if you are mine and mine only and shouldn't talk to other girls. But that can't happen na love. You need to talk to many females as and whenever you need. I can't refrain you from that. But now I can sleep soundly and peacefully thinking about you. I love you Rohit ❤️😘😘 Today is the day I got my periods 23-2-22. And my final exams begin from next week and I am not studying at all you know. But don't worry I will not overthink and study well now. Good night love. I feel good talking to you 💋💋🌃😴 sleep well 😘 Update - I don't know but I do feel possessiveness for you. You talked to Shruti on call when we met for the 2nd time on 17th March for 2 long hours. In between I was like how long this will go. Please end this soon. The way she talks to you then she said we will talk on call once a week and I was like nooo... Why once a week then it would be everyday and what if she starts loving you or so or she already does a little bit I don't know. She is young might not know the exact is it crush or love but what if. I know you will love me always with all your heart and I don't have doubt about that. I always feared others starting to feel for you. You don't feel the same way for them but still. As for Shruti one moment came when I felt like cutting the call all of a sudden and telling her we will talk later. But then I felt it was very mean of me and it was all my possessiveness which was speaking. I hated that moment much. I keep on thinking about this these days and yesterday when you said to call on Telegram I thought what was all this sudden about Telegram call. Maybe you both must have talked but you didn't tell me thinking I would be much more possessive or angry about that. I don't know why this happens. It's bcoz I love you and bound to get possessive for you. But don't worry I will get over it soon. I will talk to you about it also but felt like writing it down here so that I can see all my phases I went through. I read the above letter once again and I felt yes I love you very much and you love me the same very much 😘❤️🥰 This possessiveness is gonna make me consume so much of my energy so I better not think about that much. I must tell you writing these things helps a lot. I love you 3000, Rohit 😘😘🥰❤️ 🥰पता नहीं ये कब हो गया तुम मेरे जीने का जरिया बन गए तुम्हारे बिना जिंदगी अधूरी सी लगने लगी ये सांसों पे सिर्फ तुम्हारा और तुम्हारा ही नाम है।🥰
