if i could gift myself something, i would give myself you. yes. you. anything else would pale in comparison to the joy of having you. i wish i could simply go to you and tell you the truth -- that i still love you and that i've never really stopped. the fact that i left or that you left isn't really the point. for why should that even matter when what really matters is that i can't get over you? i don't know if it was pride or pain that made me leave. i don't know why you never ran after me, too. we both made huge mistakes that day. how i wish i were much braver than i really am, so i could tell you that i think of you constantly; but i'm not that courageous. maybe in time, everything will be better. maybe, i'll go back to you. maybe, you'll come back to me. maybe. for now, i'll simply bear the pain of being without you; but if i get to gift myself something? i'll give myself you. always, only you. #giftmyself #challenge #thoughts #yopowrimo #yqbaba
