So, yes. I just uploaded a comic on masturbation. It's a pretty tabooed thing to talk about. The thing is we enjoy pleasure but regret after enjoying it thinking that we don't deserve it. Yes, I have experienced it. I have gone through all this guilt cycles. And trust me they are bad, very very bad, worst I mean. It all started maybe 3 years ago... when I was this simple and all obedient small little child, filled with innocence and dumbness. I was introduced to porn through my curiosity. And then what!? I slipped into the viscious cycle of trying to control the urge to not to masturbate and regretting on my failure, and this continued till very recent. A year ago, I came to know about the "no-fap" community. I thought that would help. I started taking challenges. The benifits of the no fap motivated me, I finally thought that there was still a ray of hope left, I felt like I would escape this darkness. I maintained my streak for 16-17 days (my longest one) and was on the top of the world. I was very happy. Why won't I be? I was a person masturbating everyday, and sometimes more than one time, and did all that while regretting on my doings. All this started to affect me in very real ways. After masturbation, I would lose all my self-confidence, won't talk to anyone, would regret whole two days and sometimes even more than that, and would've been shady all this time. I would stutter for one or two days. Would have suicidal thoughts once or twice (not that severe though). Was a pathetic mess. I needed to get out of this. Because this not only affected me but also affected my studies and the people around because I would be irritated all the time. I started to look and search for it on the youtube, it was not the first I searched for it but was the first time I searched only for it and not for its benifits or drawbacks. A magic happened. I got two mind opening ted talk videos (mentioned below). They helped me make the picture clearer. Before, I was this unorganised piece of shit. They talked about how being more open to others and telling this to your close ones helped them and how they can help me.
