I want to clog my ears shut my eyes hear not, nothing see not, eyes defies I want to shut myself up like the doors and windows of this house, my second home no! not first, I deny. let the music blow my mind let it shatter into pieces let every piece scream for I can't, I cry. Oh! this is not me I'm tired of not being me and you can't tell me from me for I pretend, I lie. Just so you know and if you ever noticed I don't smile that often now but for you, I try. Trying to fit in. Though I'm warmly welcomed, still it's difficult. #yqbaba #fitin #secondhome #marriage #adjustments
