wotevah (i guess?) TW: sensitive graphic descriptions. . this has been crazy. you know what wotevah means when it comes up in your feed. i almost peeled off the whole skin of my lips without intending to harm myself. almost. then they started aching as if there's a rupture or something. it's like. i don't know. it just feels like nerve cells getting destroyed and i am out of control. there are so many 'i wish i could's. i hate it more because this isn't new. it's a cliché. the cliché of. i never thought it would get worse. childhood. let's not talk about it. .. picture a huge huge bucket. picture water in it. do you know what my hands look like? they're prettier than my feet. and prettier than. let's not talk about it. so picture a big bucket and watch me dip my fingers in the water. that's... satisfying, i guess?
