17. Dear the one whom I love like anything,

17. Dear the one whom I love like anything, Sometimes I feel like these periods will take the entire me. My periods started yesterday actually day before yesterday but they didn't start with full flow normally till yesterday. These periods I don't know feel like as if I am beating cancer and they will bleed me to death. I haven't felt like this before. This is the first time maybe bcoz I read The Fault In Our Stars after a long time. But I have you by my side so not to worry about it. Yesterday I was feeling like crying so much after dinner it felt like an urge to cry but then your call came and it all vanished. Now also I want to cry a lot. I am crying too but it's funny that I am crying on the fact that you are not at hospital, at your home, free but still not talking to me. These hormones I tell you, have got to my head. Later when I will be reading this I would laugh aloud even when you will read you would laugh too but right now I feel like crying and I want to cry and I am crying. I don't want to feel like this. Why do these hormones play with our minds like that! I hate them for they make me think such things about you. I sometimes hate you too during my mood swings and then I hate myself for hating you during that time. I know you need to give time to your parents and relatives too and this is all my periods and mood swings speaking. Also lately we have been talking too much throughout the entire day. I wonder sometimes you might feel I am invading your privacy and you don't get to live a life of your own. I keep on calling you the entire day but don't worry it's just for few days. Once my internship starts I hope that I get to talk to you during our earlier regular times, that's all I want and wish for. You know I cry almost everytime during my periods the 2nd or 3rd day since they have been getting closer to normal. It feels good after crying you know just like I am feeling right now. Wanted to share this with you. I know you are enjoying your time at home and excited too since from today IPL is starting (26th March) I can't believe we met just 10 days ago and I had the most beautiful time of my life. You are amazing Rohit and I always feel grateful and blessed to have got you. I wish the best for us and soon too 🤞🤞 Yesterday after talking to you I felt really happy though I felt tired and was dying to sleep but these moments with you I get to treasure are above everything I had wished for in my life. You by my side and it's the most blissful thing I can ever have. Thank you for being in my life and bringing the kick and happiness. I love you very much Rohit 😘🥰❤️💋 ❤️ तुमसे जब भी मिलती हूं हर बार प्यार थोड़ा ज्यादा होता है क्या पता हर बार तुम्हें नए सिरे से जान रही हूं ऐसा लगता है। ❤️