The red varnish on my well maintained nails... your favourite colour on me.. Shine through the scanty sunlight allowed to fall through those curtains...we bought together...as you would remember.. I am 'awake', still i my legs tangle one over the other... Signalling the lifelessness of this never ending sleep... Looking over my body...i feel each part of it calling your name.. Unable to breathe... This dress of mine...still smells of you.. ...i feel u beside me...but with my eyes closed... The aroma of those candles..you bought to create the environment....runs in my blood.. No amount of coldness in the air...can help it..i sweat profusely.. And this feeling of me, you and us scares me...every night... As u take a toll on me... I try to resist you... But your memories are much more alive inside me...than the ones present here... It's hard to remind myself...by reading that note on the side table... That says, 'Stop imagining, he is never coming back, he is dead.',written by those wanting me to move on.. A handmade calender reads,'Day 730'...since he died. If only i could understand...whether i am held captive by my thoughts or it's just your soul holding me..forever..(hoping it to exist)....❤ -Aakanksha Jha #Stars&Me #bezubaan_jazbaat❤
