i see you on my feed. not intentionally, never deliberately. i have been avoiding you because a glimpse of you weakens me. i wish to remove you from every part of me. blot you out, block you, forget your existence. coward that i am, i do not wish to remember you, or anything that brings back the memories of you. and yet, unknowingly, my soul searches for you in every smile, in every face, in every little thing. illogical it may be, my senseless mind links you to my very existence. it's been ages since the last time i touched you, talked to you. you left me and yet, you never really left. the profundity of what i feel, brings forth a huge wave of longing that eclipses every hurt, that you made me feel. is this what love is? loving you weakens me. i want to die instead. kill me. so i may be free from you. love blots out everything else. when it isn't requited, loving someone may equal a hellish existence and produce a constant ache. love does not always mean bliss. #unloved #unrequitedlove #painfullove #yqbaba #yqdidi #thoughts #bored #diwa
