People call you psychologically ill. They don't trust you, they think you have deliberately invited the diseases you have. Unfortunately sometimes these people may be your near dears. They are not ready to listen . I am suffering from severe respiratory allergies. For many days, I have not been able to sneeze with carrying sensation of sneeze in nostrils but unable to make it come out. It's really irritating and suffocating. Iam getting frustrated with the allergic ailments. Now very new member among by disease members is asthma. I don't know, actually don't want to hope. Because whenever I drink little hope on getting a little sigh of relief one-day... Very next day again all the symptoms pop up. I am the only kid of parents. I know they have various dreams for me. From education to the best job. From marriage to prosperity. But I literally afraid from dreaming, I don't know if I would be able to fulfill any of them. These days I am also not doing any Worshipping... Because I think, if my heart isn't ready to interact with God along with these realities of diseases... Then I am not doing justice with me and God. Writing out of frustration. 😌 Am I week, coward in front of these diseases?
