An unsent message Don't worry about me I'llbe fine Just don't look into my eyes. The inspirational messages and life quotes, that you sent me the other day on my phone. I know you want to see my alright my friend But just telling me to be happy doesn't work as you intend. Depression is not just a word or a condition by choice, trust me to be in a pathetic mess is not what I rejoice. Stop asking me to not be miserable and to start a take, Doctors train and study for this condition for years god sake. But please my friend don't leave me alone, I need you to listen to my situation and condone . Its true that I am very bad at confrontations, And I don't repeat myself so try to listen me with all attention Mornings are so despairing and so are the last few hours of night, I spend much of my time staring at nothing and am too afraid of light. Did I tell you how l stood at the edge of my balcony unsupported, comparing depth of the building and abyss of my grief but backed a step and jolted. Google tells me its only some serotonergic transmitters I lack, Take me to the therapy as soon as you are back. I am sick of crying, tired of trying, Yeah I send smiling emoticons but inside I am dying. I want to push aside the burden of Sisyphus that I've been carrying since infinity, To cajole Atlas to shrug and be free from other's responsibilities. But this ephemeral courage soon fades into nothing you see, I'm not as indefatigable as you remember me. So here I am to jostle one more day of desolation alone , And 'its all ok' is my only message received on your phone. An unsent message #splash2020
