Dear papa,
With a heavy heart I have to witness this day without you and your benign presence. As this day arrives it brings along a plethora of emotions which waits for the entire year to be conveyed. Its the pile of deep anguish and heartfelt mournings. Inexplicable perplexity and agony squeezing the heart and drenching it in unfathomable sorrow. Two long years without you and it seems like twenty years without you papa.
Times changed so did people !
But not a bit in my longing for you. I still gaze at the door at five in the evening thinking of you to return from office. I still hug your shirts which provides me the false comfort of your touch. I still look for you in home when I come back from outside. I still wait at the table for you to come and start the meal.
Something that has remained constant in these two years is my love and craving for you. Journey without you is very painful papa. It's just like walking on paths paved with thorns with a pretentious smile on face. Not a single day passes without reminiscing you. Dwelling in your memories to evade away your absence is all that I do nowadays. I had always anticipated that I would forever have your and mamma's presence in my life. As my anticipation ruptured, it left me shattered and ruined. I never thought wildest in my dreams that the person who never left me alone to go to another lane would leave me alone amidst all strangers.
From resembling you in looks to resembling you in actions, I am proud to be your daughter. Today that I am so headstrong and capable of doing anything on my own is the fruitful outcome of your perfect upbringing. I am so lucky that all your feats have been installed within me. I know even you would have been glad enough to see me as your replica. You are my ideal and I am following your footsteps.
My only pain is why were you beckoned so early to the heavenly abode above. Every now and then, hoping for a miracle to happen so that I can have you with me, is the only undying wish that thrives in my heart.
Happy father's day papa❤️
