sometimes, it just whizzes in me, an ocean. it looks calm and gorgeous, but no. humming. thrumming. monster. works its way up my cold feet. my legs tremble. slithers slowly up to my abdomen, it drills deep, whirr, whirr, as if, as if it wants to keep me alive, but still eat me up. and i want to throw up. bad. i don't want to close my eyes but i can't keep them open either. you have no idea what the ocean looks like. you don't. "Mamma Mia, here I go again, my my, how can I resist you?" #cinemagraph #ramona #whatischaos
