Life is unpredictable ! Life is a desert of shifting sand dunes. Unpredictable. Erratic. Harmony changes into dissonance, the immediate outlives the profound, esoteric becomes cliched and vice versa. Today I stand on that verge of uncertainty and vulnerability where I was thrown three years back on this very day. Bereaved, broken, numb and fragile, standing clueless to the merciless actions of god. Wandering all the while so as to why I was destined to be kept aloof from my father's love, affection and care. Three years but still unable to find the reason behind all the injustice that has happened with me. Tremors of anguish runs down as I remember my entire collapsing down and shattering to pieces. And that very feeling of losing all that you possess is very dismaying. Plethora of emotions clashing among themselves and the pain of becoming fatherless is squeezing my heart every now and then. Fighting every moment to deal with your absence papa is the toughest task of my life. Afterall can a daughter ever be pacified for her father's loss ? I think no one ever can and for me it is the biggest curse I have been endowed with. And when someone loses a father like you, it is the biggest loss and marks the end of that person's life. I can't even express how worse it feels like without you papa. You never failed to cater my tiniest need, kept on fulfilling all my demands, showering tons of love upon me and protecting me from all the problems you have always been the best father. I badly miss being that papa's darling daughter and I miss all the fun and cute moments spent with you. I know even you were unaware of god's ruthless and cruel actions because you were never the one to back off from responsibilities and leave your little angel alone amidst all these strangers. I am very proud to have such an honest, responsible and loving father like you. Nevertheless years may pass by, but I shall always have that complain against god so as to why he beckoned you so early to his heavenly abode.
