I don't remember. Is it yesterday today or it was today, yesterday?
It's a month?
She's been screaming for so long it's dissolving into my body's background, something that's worse than having to hear it outside my head. Mumma oiled my head after a month? It takes time to settle down. I don't know if I was crying because of the deadly headache (still won't call it migraine) or because I felt faint. I lost 136 grams today and walked 8365 steps.
It's been so long since he showed he cared for me that every time he asks me if I need anything, if I want to talk, if I want to have tea with him, if we can sing together, if I want to watch a movie with him that I want to be deconstructed with happiness
and guilt. #r_grief#selfcare_r#fifteen_ramona
