TODAY Well today could have been our anniversary Today....I would have dressed just for you Today, I would have written you a poem or a love letter, maybe both Today...I would.. But today marks 634 days since you broke my heart 634 days since I found you in her arms Today, could have been our anniversary,but instead... today serves as a reminder of my foolishness and immaturity. I had you were getting married And oh, thank you for asking If I was "okay" with it, like my opinion ever mattered And thanks for the apology,but I think it's too late It was too late the moment I caught you And oh thanks for the invite.. What a blissful reunion it would be if I showed up at your wedding Today, exactly 634 days ago,I slit my wrists I felt at peace as I bled I found peace in my dark thoughts But today 634 days ago,I was saved by my mother And I realized she had raised me better That I was never really in love with you,I was in love with a version of you that you switched on when you wanted to get laid That I deserved better. Today, today...my therapist gave me a punching bag with your face on it She asked me to hit hard to let go of all my anger But today I realized it wasn't worth it, you weren't worth it Today I realized I owed myself an apology for my stupidity For trying to kill myself For putting you before me Today... could have been our anniversary but am glad it isn't Cause today...I realized am glad I lost you #heart break#
