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Tum Kaisi Mohabbat karti Ho..!! Tum Jab
Bhi Ghar Par Aati Ho Aur Sab Say Batain
Karti Ho Mein Aout Say Parday ki Janaa'n
Bus Tum Ko Dekhta Rehta Hoon Ik Tum Ko
Dekhnay Ki Khatir Mein Kitna Pagal Hota
Hoon
Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta hoon Tum Kaisi
Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Jab Darwazay Par
Dastak Ho Ya Ghanti Phone Ki Bajti Ho Mein
Chor K Sab Kuch Bhagta Hoon Aur Tum Ko Jo
Na Paoon Tou Ji Bhar K Ronay Lagta Hoon
Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta Hoon Tum Kaisi
Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Mehfil Mein Kahin
Bhi Jana Ho Kapron Ka Selection Kerna Ho
Rang Bohat Say Samnay Bikhray Hoon Us
Rang Pe Dil Aa Jata Hai Jo Rang K Tum Ko
Bhata Hai Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta Hoon
Tum Kaisi Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Rozana
Apnay College Mein Kisi Aur Ka Lecture
Suntay Hoay Ya Break K Khali Ghantay Mein
dosti Say Batain Kertay Hoay Meray
Dhiyan Mein Tum Aa Jati Ho Mein, Mein
Nahin Rehta Phir Janan Mein Tum Mein Gum
Ho Jata hoon Bus Khuwabon Mein Kho Jata
Hoon Un Aankhon Mein Kho Jata Hoon Mein
Aisi Muhabbat Kerta hoon Tum Kaisi
Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Jis Chehray Par Bhi
Nighah Paray Her Chehra Tum Sa Lagta Hai
Wo Sham Ho Ya Ke Dhop Samey Sab Kitna
Bhala Sa Lagta Hai Janay Ye Kaisa Nasha
Hai Garmi Ka Tapta Mausam Bhi Jaray Ka
Maheena Lagta Hai Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta
Hoon Tum Kaisi Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Tum
Jab Bhi Samnay Aati Ho Mein Tum Say
Sunn'na Chahta Hoon Kash Kabhi Tum Ye Keh
Do Tum Mujh Say Muhabbat Kerti Ho Tum
Mujh Ko Bohat Hi Chahti Ho Lekin Janay
Tum Kyun Chup Ho Yeh Soch K Dil Ghabrata
Hai Aisa Tou Nahin Hai Na janan Sirf Meri
Nazar Ka Dhoka Ho Tum Nay Mujh Ko Chaha
Hi Na Ho Koi Aur Hi Dil Mein Rehta Ho Mein
Tum Say Poochna Chahta hoon Mein Tum Say
Kehna Chahta hoon Lekin Kuch Pooch Nahin
Sakta Mana Ke Muhabbat Hai Phir Bhi Lab
Apnay Khol Nahin Sakta Mein Larka Hoon
Kaisay Keh Doon Mein Kaisi Muhabbat Kerta
Hoon Mein Tum Say Ye Kaisay Pochoon Tum
Kaisi Muhabbat Kerti Ho......!! Chup Chap
See Mein Ho Jata Hoon Phir Dil Mein Apnay
Kehta hoon Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta hoon
Tum Kaisi Muhabbat Kerti Ho......
tum kaisi mohabbat karti ho .????????????

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Tum Kaisi Mohabbat karti Ho..!! Tum Jab
Bhi Ghar Par Aati Ho Aur Sab Say Batain
Karti Ho Mein Aout Say Parday ki Janaa'n
Bus Tum Ko Dekhta Rehta Hoon Ik Tum Ko
Dekhnay Ki Khatir Mein Kitna Pagal Hota
Hoon
Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta hoon Tum Kaisi
Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Jab Darwazay Par
Dastak Ho Ya Ghanti Phone Ki Bajti Ho Mein
Chor K Sab Kuch Bhagta Hoon Aur Tum Ko Jo
Na Paoon Tou Ji Bhar K Ronay Lagta Hoon
Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta Hoon Tum Kaisi
Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Mehfil Mein Kahin
Bhi Jana Ho Kapron Ka Selection Kerna Ho
Rang Bohat Say Samnay Bikhray Hoon Us
Rang Pe Dil Aa Jata Hai Jo Rang K Tum Ko
Bhata Hai Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta Hoon
Tum Kaisi Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Rozana
Apnay College Mein Kisi Aur Ka Lecture
Suntay Hoay Ya Break K Khali Ghantay Mein
dosti Say Batain Kertay Hoay Meray
Dhiyan Mein Tum Aa Jati Ho Mein, Mein
Nahin Rehta Phir Janan Mein Tum Mein Gum
Ho Jata hoon Bus Khuwabon Mein Kho Jata
Hoon Un Aankhon Mein Kho Jata Hoon Mein
Aisi Muhabbat Kerta hoon Tum Kaisi
Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Jis Chehray Par Bhi
Nighah Paray Her Chehra Tum Sa Lagta Hai
Wo Sham Ho Ya Ke Dhop Samey Sab Kitna
Bhala Sa Lagta Hai Janay Ye Kaisa Nasha
Hai Garmi Ka Tapta Mausam Bhi Jaray Ka
Maheena Lagta Hai Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta
Hoon Tum Kaisi Muhabbat Kerti Ho..?? Tum
Jab Bhi Samnay Aati Ho Mein Tum Say
Sunn'na Chahta Hoon Kash Kabhi Tum Ye Keh
Do Tum Mujh Say Muhabbat Kerti Ho Tum
Mujh Ko Bohat Hi Chahti Ho Lekin Janay
Tum Kyun Chup Ho Yeh Soch K Dil Ghabrata
Hai Aisa Tou Nahin Hai Na janan Sirf Meri
Nazar Ka Dhoka Ho Tum Nay Mujh Ko Chaha
Hi Na Ho Koi Aur Hi Dil Mein Rehta Ho Mein
Tum Say Poochna Chahta hoon Mein Tum Say
Kehna Chahta hoon Lekin Kuch Pooch Nahin
Sakta Mana Ke Muhabbat Hai Phir Bhi Lab
Apnay Khol Nahin Sakta Mein Larka Hoon
Kaisay Keh Doon Mein Kaisi Muhabbat Kerta
Hoon Mein Tum Say Ye Kaisay Pochoon Tum
Kaisi Muhabbat Kerti Ho......!! Chup Chap
See Mein Ho Jata Hoon Phir Dil Mein Apnay
Kehta hoon Mein Aisi Muhabbat Kerta hoon
Tum Kaisi Muhabbat Kerti Ho......
tum kaisi mohabbat karti ho .????????????

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How to Attain Victory Over Anger
Just as you learn to keep accounts, and when you learn the key elements of accounting then tracking becomes very easy. Similarly there is a main point, the key element, the root of every question, and if you learn this then the answer to that question will automatically come to you.The question that has come is that how to attain victory over anger? Then the question really is, where does anger come from? Gita says - “Anger comes from desire” - “kaamaatkrodhaayabhijaayate” (Gita 2/62). What is that anger? Human beings have understood that “desires are for money, wealth, grandeur, power, etc.” - These are also desires, but what is the main and real desire? “This should happen and this should not happen” - the name of this subtle want within is called “desire”.
First you hold on to the point that “this should certainly happen” and when that does not happen, then you become angry. And “This should not happen” and when someone does that or does something opposing to your wishes, then you get angry. This should happen and this should not happen, this is the root of all anger.
There is no gain in desiring that it should happen like this, or it should not happen like this; because will the world ask us before doing something? Will they do according to your liking? You want from your wife, son and servant that they should listen to you, then do they not wish the same of you? If they have nothing on their mind then they will do as you say, but in their minds too there is that thought that “ I will do it this way or not do it this way” then how will they listen only to you? When you too are not willing to listen to how they want things done, then what rights do you have that they should listen to your ways? Therefore when the feeling arises within that “This should happen like this and it should not happen like this” - then leave the insistence that the person should do it like that alone. In this insistence is your pride, in other words, I am greater, therefore he should listen to me. This pride of greatness is the main cause, and when things do not happen the way you want, then that pride itself comes in the form of anger.
If you desire peace then give up pride; because pride is the root of all the demoniac qualities. In the shadow of pride of greatness lies all the demoniac qualities of Kaliyug, All the bad qualities pertaining to demoniac qualities such as anger, greed, attachment, jealousy, passion, hypocrisy, deceit etc., they all come under the umbrella of pride, because pride is their king. If you do not give up pride then how will anger go away! Therefore give up that pride.
Now what is the solution for giving it up? Those who do not listen to you, they are helping you in getting rid of your pride, and those who listen and do as you say, they are swelling your pride - are you getting this point or not? The people who are obeying you are not benefiting you as much as, those who don’t do as you say. For you own good, the more that your pride is confronted the more better it is for you. Therefore you must be grateful to those who are not listening to you, because as such this is for our own well-being.
If they knowingly do not listen to you, saying that brother, we are not listening to you because it is for your own good, as your pride will go away, then to it is to your benefit only. They are not further swelling your pride i.e. your pride is not getting further bloated. Do you not wish for what is for your good or do you not? Do you want your spiritual progress or do you want your downfall? If you desire your spiritual growth, then it will be possible only when you are free of pride. And you will become free of pride when no one listens to you. If someone listens to you, then your words become established and this itself is cause for pride. This itself is demoniac tendency - “dambho darpobhimaanashrav krodhah” (Gita 16/4). Therefore those who do not listen to you, they are gracing you immensely. They are removing your demoniac tendencies and instilling divine tendencies in you.
Now the question that has come is that by not listening the child will become insolent and arrogant? By listening to you, you will become filled with pride, and if he does not listen then he will become insolent - now think deeply on these two points. If you are not there, then too by doing as he wants he will become insolent regardless, however how will your pride go away? Insolent he will be regardless of you, but your pride will not go away. Therefore you must get rid of your pride first and the foremost.
Second point is that if you do not dominate over him then your mild nature, that is free from pride will make an impression on him, by which his insolence will go away, rather he will become alright. You say to him that brother, you must not do this sort of work, and even thereafter if he does so, let go and become peaceful and silent. If he behaves insolently, he will get the consequences of his actions. On getting the fruits, he will become alert, and then his insolence will automatically go away. But by your persistent telling, his insolence will not go away as quickly as it would go away from suffering the consequences of his insolent behavior. The reason for this is that in his mind he will hold on to his own points, and what you say will stay superficially on the surface like silver plating. That plating will wear off, then how can his insolence go away entirely? The real solution to getting rid of his insolence is to get rid of your own pride.
If man wants to live in a family, then he must learn how to live in a family. The art of living in the family is that do as they say, do according what their wishes are. Fulfill your duty and make them happy.
What does it mean to live in a family? You have certain obligation to fulfill your duty. What is your duty? To fulfill your duties properly, whether the wife listens, does not listen, whether the son listens, does not listen, whether brother listens, does not listen, whether parents listen, do not listen. Do not ever look towards whether they do their duty or not. When you look towards their duty, and see towards their insolent or rebellious behavior etc., during such times you are deviating from your duty. Rather, you are falling from your duty. As such, where has it been said that your duty is to see towards other’s faults? No where in the scriptures it has been said that you see towards other’s faults; rather it has been said that this world is made up of the three constituents of nature (mode of passion “rajas”, ignorance “tamas” and goodness “sattva”, it is filled with faults.
Gun yah ubhaya na dekhiahin dekhia so abibek ||
(Manas 7/41)If others have good qualities you may see them, but do not see their bad qualities. If you see towards their bad qualities, those qualities will come in you. And on seeing those bad qualities if you are getting angry with them to rescue them from their willful acts, then you cannot be saved from that anger. Therefore you do your duty. We are not to see towards other’s duty, nor are we to see towards their flaws. Yes! If you have a son, then it is your duty to teach him good lessons, but wanting that he should do exactly as you say - that is not your duty. That is his duty. It is not your duty to show him what his duty is. Your duty is only to say that son, look it is not good to do like this. If he says - “no, no father, I will do it like this”; then say – “OK, do it that way!” This is a very good medicine. I too am taking this medicine. The medicine that has been given, is a very effective medicine. If you say – “Do like this” and if he says, “No ! I will do like that only.” Then
simply say – “OK! do it like that.”Rajjab ros na kijiye koyi kahe kyon hi |
Hasker utter dijiye haa babaji yu hi ||If what he is doing is sinful or unlawful, then do not accept it. We are to say that which is in accordance with the scriptures, however if they do not listen, then do the scriptures say to fight with them or to control them? You only have the rights to tell them what you know to be true, “karmanyavaadhikaaraste” (Gita 2/47) but thinking that they should do exactly as you say - that is the fruit, to which you have no rights. “Maa phaleshu kadaachan” (Gita 2/47). You have done your part, your duty was only to point out. It was not your duty to make then do as you say! To do as you say is their duty. We only have to explain their duty. If they fulfill their duty then there is no obstacle in your spiritual progress and if they do not fulfill their duty then too there is no loss. There is no loss for you at all, because you have said what is for their welfare. This is a priceless point !
Narayana! Narayana !! Narayana !!!
From "Jeevan Upyogi Pravachan " in Hindi by Swami Ramsukhdasji

नारायण ! नारायण ! नारायण !

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MUHABAT
Muhabat kiya hai? Taseer-e-muhabat kiya hai? Mahboob ka majboor kerna or muhib ka majboor ho jana?
Hamaisha easa hi ku hota hai k 7 arab say zaid logon mai hamai sirf aik easay hi shaks say muhabat ho jati hai jo hum say be-naiz hota hai?
Sirf aik osi insan k peechay hum apni tamam qowatai sarf ker k apna sab har jatay hai. 
Ku hum zaat k bajaye wajood ki talash mai rehtay hai?
Ku humai allah rah-e-rast per nhi lata? Jub keh wo to logon k dilo ko moar denay ki taqat rakhta hai. Phir ku allah humai tanha choor deta hai? Jb hum tahajud mai allah rab ul izat say ratoon ko uth ker sirf osi shaks ko mangtay hai jis say hamari zindagi ka tasalsul barqarar hai, to wo hamari ku nhi sunta?
Hum say ku bekhabar ho jata hai, jesay osay kuch ilm hi nhi?
Ye kesay mumkin hai k kurah e arz( کرہ ارض) per aik insan dosray insan k leye tarp raha ho or osay khabar tak hi na ho. Wo to khud kehta hai k mai tmsay 70 maaon say bhi zada muhabat kerta hoon, to phir wo ku begana ho jata hai?
Osnay to wada keya hai k aee ibn e adam tu mughsay mang, mai tughay nawazoo ga, phir wo humai wo shaks ku nhi de deta jis k hum talab gar hotay hai?
Hum kesay ye tawaqo ker sktay hai k jis say hum sab say zada olfat rakhtay hai wo bhi hamaray leye easay hi jazbat rakhta ho?
Oskay jazbaat ki shidat bhi wohi ho jo hamaray jazbaat ki shidat hai? Jb allah hamai itni shidat say apnay pass bulata hai to kiya hum osi shidat say oskay pass jatay hai? Wo humai din mai 5 bar dawat deta hai jo hum be khoof-o- be drdi say thukra detay hai. To hum ye kesay ommed laga lain k jo amal hum kertay hai os ka azala nhi bharna ho ga? 
Ye duniya to makafat e amal hai. Lakin nhi! Hamara zarf allah k zarf jitna nhi hai. Hum gunnah kertay hai, mgr wo یوں apna rawaiya rakhta hai jesay osnay kuch dekha hi na ho. Wo apna rizq nhi rokta.
Ye sb hamaray zheno ka fitoor hai. Bhala easay ho skta hai k hum mangay or wo na de? Wo deta zurur hai, magr wo jo hamaray leye behtr ho, na k wo jisko hum apnay leye behtr tasawur kerai. Wo duwain qabool kerta hai, magr tb jb onki qabooliyat ka behtareen waqt ho! Na keh tb jb onki qabooliyat ka baad tareen wqt ho. Wo to hamara bhala chahta hai. Wo to kehta hai na

    "ae ibn e adam!  Ik teri chah hai or ik meri chah hai. Ho ga wohi jo meri chah hai. Bas agr tu nay khud ko sapurd ker deya oskay jo meri chah hai, to mai tujh ko wo bhi doo ga jo teri chah hai. Lakin agr tu nay mukhalfat ki oski jo meri chah hai, to mai tujh ko thaka doo ga osmai jo teri chah hai. Beshak ho ga wohi jo meri chah hai"

Hum wo tamam aafaal(افعال) sar injam de rhay hotay hai jo allah ki chah k khilaf hotay hai. Hum allah ki trf say mutaain (متعین) kerdah rastay ki mukhalif simt per chal rahay hotay hai, hamai ehsas hi nhi hota k hum kis gunnah k murtaqib tehraye ja rhay hotay hai. Hum apni chah ko pora kernay ki tag-o-doo mai masroof hotay hai, or wo Allah apni chah ko pora ker k dikhata hai jismai sirf haamari bhalai shamil hoti hai.
Beshak insan bara hi bekhabar waqaiya howa hai!!

- Danial Hassan

 

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MUHABAT
Muhabat kiya hai? Taseer-e-muhabat kiya hai? Mahboob ka majboor kerna or muhib ka majboor ho jana?
Hamaisha easa hi ku hota hai k 7 arab say zaid logon mai hamai sirf aik easay hi shaks say muhabat ho jati hai jo hum say be-naiz hota hai?
Sirf aik osi insan k peechay hum apni tamam qowatai sarf ker k apna sab har jatay hai. 
Ku hum zaat k bajaye wajood ki talash mai rehtay hai?
Ku humai allah rah-e-rast per nhi lata? Jub keh wo to logon k dilo ko moar denay ki taqat rakhta hai. Phir ku allah humai tanha choor deta hai? Jb hum tahajud mai allah rab ul izat say ratoon ko uth ker sirf osi shaks ko mangtay hai jis say hamari zindagi ka tasalsul barqarar hai, to wo hamari ku nhi sunta?
Hum say ku bekhabar ho jata hai, jesay osay kuch ilm hi nhi?
Ye kesay mumkin hai k kurah e arz( کرہ ارض) per aik insan dosray insan k leye tarp raha ho or osay khabar tak hi na ho. Wo to khud kehta hai k mai tmsay 70 maaon say bhi zada muhabat kerta hoon, to phir wo ku begana ho jata hai?
Osnay to wada keya hai k aee ibn e adam tu mughsay mang, mai tughay nawazoo ga, phir wo humai wo shaks ku nhi de deta jis k hum talab gar hotay hai?
Hum kesay ye tawaqo ker sktay hai k jis say hum sab say zada olfat rakhtay hai wo bhi hamaray leye easay hi jazbat rakhta ho?
Oskay jazbaat ki shidat bhi wohi ho jo hamaray jazbaat ki shidat hai? Jb allah hamai itni shidat say apnay pass bulata hai to kiya hum osi shidat say oskay pass jatay hai? Wo humai din mai 5 bar dawat deta hai jo hum be khoof-o- be drdi say thukra detay hai. To hum ye kesay ommed laga lain k jo amal hum kertay hai os ka azala nhi bharna ho ga? 
Ye duniya to makafat e amal hai. Lakin nhi! Hamara zarf allah k zarf jitna nhi hai. Hum gunnah kertay hai, mgr wo یوں apna rawaiya rakhta hai jesay osnay kuch dekha hi na ho. Wo apna rizq nhi rokta.
Ye sb hamaray zheno ka fitoor hai. Bhala easay ho skta hai k hum mangay or wo na de? Wo deta zurur hai, magr wo jo hamaray leye behtr ho, na k wo jisko hum apnay leye behtr tasawur kerai. Wo duwain qabool kerta hai, magr tb jb onki qabooliyat ka behtareen waqt ho! Na keh tb jb onki qabooliyat ka baad tareen wqt ho. Wo to hamara bhala chahta hai. Wo to kehta hai na

    "ae ibn e adam!  Ik teri chah hai or ik meri chah hai. Ho ga wohi jo meri chah hai. Bas agr tu nay khud ko sapurd ker deya oskay jo meri chah hai, to mai tujh ko wo bhi doo ga jo teri chah hai. Lakin agr tu nay mukhalfat ki oski jo meri chah hai, to mai tujh ko thaka doo ga osmai jo teri chah hai. Beshak ho ga wohi jo meri chah hai"

Hum wo tamam aafaal(افعال) sar injam de rhay hotay hai jo allah ki chah k khilaf hotay hai. Hum allah ki trf say mutaain (متعین) kerdah rastay ki mukhalif simt per chal rahay hotay hai, hamai ehsas hi nhi hota k hum kis gunnah k murtaqib tehraye ja rhay hotay hai. Hum apni chah ko pora kernay ki tag-o-doo mai masroof hotay hai, or wo Allah apni chah ko pora ker k dikhata hai jismai sirf haamari bhalai shamil hoti hai.
Beshak insan bara hi bekhabar waqaiya howa hai!!

- Danial Hassan

 

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It was my first day at school.... my new school. Heard about it before that teachers are very strict, students are bold and fluent, no talk in Hindi only English is allowed otherwise, a thin cane is waiting to decorate your palms with beat marks, so yes I was scared. By the way, I am Kiara, a person full of curiosity and creativity. I was not mastero in speaking English but I was sure that I will learn. I entered the class labeled 7th standard.... now it's weird that instead of analyzing the class, my attention was dragged towards a boy behaving as if he has not seen girls before.... I mean he was not staring at but was behaving as he is alegeretic from them. It was Rohan.... although I don't like judging people or making advance perceptions but at that very moment, I didn't like him or to be honest I hated him.......

Classes started and with time all unknown became friends.... oh again let me clarify, girls and boys became friends not among them but within them separately. Now there are two groups.... girls gang and boys gang. Simultaneously we all were divided into different houses.... I was in Yellow, my favorite colour and he was in Yellow, my not so favorite and that too the HOUSE CAPTAIN. I don't know what was his problem.... why he is always like "I me aur mein". He don't speak nicely, he don't walk nicely, he don't behave nicely, he don't smile nicely.... actually he is a jerk.

It's gonna be fun.... fest week is going to start and I am super excited for so many things race, relley, kho-kho, high jump, dance and March past. We started practicing long ago for March Past as it's all about coordination here. Being a Captain, it was Rohan's duty to lead, command and along with that monitor the rest of the house while programmes. We were senior most in school so duties were alotted to us as well. I have to keep younger ones quite as told by so called Rohan.

Sports were started and we all pulled our socks, forgetting that who we HATE, came together to make YELLOW win. Girls won relley and kho-kho and boys won cricket but here comes the most dramatic scene when "Mr. Rohan was immediately taken to classroom after the match followed by school boys CRUSH Ms. Priya and few students including ME.... OK so I didn't go to check on him, it was my class too I had some work.... fine I wanted to see he is hurt or just acting. He shouted like hell when Ms. Priya tried to put dettol. I was curious to see how much he is hurt and I found the same thing which I was expecting.... a SCRATCH that's it, how can he create scene like daily soap over just a small scratch.... he behaved as if he is Rohini not Rohan. He saw me smiling at him and I continued as I love watching him like this.... ah no doubt he too don't leave any chance to bother me as he did the very next day.

I was trying to make children quite so I just said "keep quite otherwise your stupid Captain will come". He heard that.... I thought he would be angry or would not talk to me that we usually don't but Iiiiiii never imagined "what he did that day".... complained to Ms. Priya, like seeeeeeeriously. Are you kidding me.... you are grown up how can you do like nersery child, ahhhhhhhhhhhhh I HATE YOU.

With time things were settled, we got busy into boards and all. I never took any tution classes but in 12th standard I decided to join Nair Aunty's classes for Physics. Rohan also use to come there but this is not which I was bothered about. I was worried about my decision as my father use to teach me till now and I was scared if he will be hurt about my decision. We discussed things and he was fine with it.

At tution on my first day, Rohan was surprised to see me or I should say he was shocked and definitely not happy....... so do I, our friends were aware about this disliking for each other. I don't know but what just happened to my friend's, they use to poke me when Rohan arrives at classes......"look na you both are wearing same colour, see he is staring you and so on".

Boards were on head and atmosphere at home was very tensed. Here suddenly, parents realised their duties. Papa's have to hide laptop chargers, tabs, ipads and Mom's have to hide TV remote, novels. There was a strict rule "NO TV". In all this, I was confused because I started thinking about Rohan, his mischiefs, my fights with him, his stupisities.....his smile, his face, his.......WHAT is happening to me why I am thinking about him.

I tried diverting my mind and focus towards studies alongwith that I thought to figure it out after exams.

We were done with board exams and all other competitive exams also. Now this was the time when we were waiting for our results and college counseling. Our daily routine was to eat, sleep and roam with friends. There were no studies as we don't know what to study, there were no hiding of entertainment stuff, it felt like heaven.......

I figured out the Rohan's matter, I decided to tell him that I think "I love you". I told this to one of our common friend Meera, she told me that Rohan already have a girlfriend. I was broken and there were so many filmy lines which were coming to my mind......"mera pelha pyar adhura reh gaya", "tujhe yaad na meri aayi kisise ab kya kehna", "tu pyar hai kisi aur ka tujhe chahta koi aur hai", "aacha chalti hoon duaooo mein yaad rakhna......". Then I thought to tell him because atleast I will be ok that I told him......

On 9th December, 2011 @ 06:00 PM, I called him and yes Rohan was shocked about my call, I said "I LOVE YOU". Rohan said "I have a girlfriend". I said "I KNOW", I told him "I hope the way you love her, she also do". He took a pause and said "I think so". The call was dropped and I was happy not because I told him but because "if he didn't say YES then also he didn't say NO". We moved on with college. He went Ahemdabad and I went Kelera......

After completion of first semester, students were very happy as it was home coming after soo long. I was packing my bags and was so excited to meet my school friends and may be Rohan.......we reached hometown back to back and planned a reunion. Riya (my school friend) called me and said "Rohan was asking for your number". Ok now where were this comes from.......I asked "WHY". She said she has given my number. I was confused what he wanna say, Is he going to say I......... Naaaa he will not. I was pretty happy that Riya gave him my number as I got to know earlier "he broke up with his girlfriend".

At reunion, we all met and everything went on well. In the evening, Rohan called "I am sorry". I asked "Sorry for what". He said "Sorry because I didn't accept your proposal at that time". I said "Proposal???? it's ok, we were kids and now I imagine that how I proposed you......". We laughed over this thing but I was aware on back of my mind that I still love him and whatever I said was because I didn't want to make him uncomfortable.

Semester break was over and we went to our colleges. Rohan and I started talking on phone. I found him good and he found me practical. With time UG was completed, he started with job and I went for PG degree.

I am 24, have a job but planning to change. Here I am planning to start my career and there my parents are planning to get rid of me.......in simple words, they are planning to get me married which I don't want. All these years I focused on studies and was just not able to stop thinking about him. We talk sometimes and everytime I start loving him more. I imagine him when I am sad I imagine him when I am happy, his only thought brings smile on my face he is always with me I imagine him in every situation I make my own stories with him I fell for him more and more......

Finally on 15th February, 2018 @ 11:00 PM I called him......

Rohan: Hi, kaisa hai beta?

Kiara: (Oh I love him more when he calls me "beta", thinking in mind) Hi, Mein badiya tum kaise ho.

Rohan: I am good.

Kiara: I hope you were not sleeping and even if you were then wake up its quite important.

Rohan: If I say that I was sleeping than I know you won't let me so yeah.......tell me

Kiara: Ok so I am confused ahmmmmmmm Rohan what were you doing?

Rohan: I am pretty sure you didn't call me to ask this.......right?

Kiara: Ok so I just called to say......I mean ask......I mean say......

Rohan: Yeah tell me I am listening

Kiara: Wait a second I think on the back of your mind you know what am I gonna say?

Rohan: Yes but I want to hear it from you.

Kiara: (ab jab sammne wala aise reply karega toh aapko toh positive wines hi aayenge na, thinking in mind) Ok so I wanted......I will start from beginning OK

Rohan: Don't tell me tu mujhe lamba pakane wali hai.

Kiara: Shut up

Rohan: I was kidding beta

Kiara: So Rohan I use to hate you alot from 7th to 12th standard.

Rohan: Hate?

Kiara: Yes and then I don't know what just happened to me and I......

Rohan: Say it

Kiara: I like you

Rohan: Silent.......

Kiara: Ok so I will give background music dhiding dhiding dhiding.......

Rohan: Hehe

Kiara: One more thing.......this is not a question I just wanted to tell you......I don't want any ANSWER from you I just wanna let you know

Rohan: I know you are not dying for me and you don't find me special but yes I am feeling special at this time.

Kiara: Hehe

Rohan: (after a long silence) Hey, I like you too because I can share anything with you, whenever I feel like talking I have you and trust me I don't want you to solve my problems with me......I just want you to sit with me and listen to me.

Kiara: Okk so now you are confusing me......there is a difference between your liking and mine.

Rohan:. Yes, there is a difference.

Kiara: You clarified your side now it's my turn......Rohan......no matter I am sad or happy I always imagine you.....if I have so many problems or if I have solution to each of them.....I just thik that you are with me.

Rohan: Wao I am proud of you because I would never be able to say and I am very glad you said this to ME.

Kiara: Hmmmm

Rohan: Well tomorrow I am leaving for cousins (our common family friend) wedding, you also come na I will be bored there alone.

Kiara: Naaaa you have fun

Rohan: (it's 12:07 PM) I want to say something I hope you will not scold me.....

Kiara: No I will not......tell me

Rohan: I am very sleepy

Kiara: Expected.......you can sleep

Rohan: I will call you once I reach to the wedding point.

Kiara: Sure......

Rohan: Bye beta

Kiara: (don't go......I love you, thinking in mind) Bye.......

I feel like getting him off my head and very next moment I feel like hugging him tightly. I know I love him and also I want to get over him. I will not call it a one sided love story......all I will call it is "a complete love story without an ANSWER".

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